Writing...Writing is a way to express, to communicate, and to form one’s thoughts, hopes, dreams... As I sit down behind a cozy desk, surrounded by an organized collision of possessions, my mind wanders from one thought to another…How does one write down what goes on in their head, when their thoughts are like their possessions? My thoughts are a mess that often do not even make sense to me…How will I be able to communicate them to you? I have no idea. I guess, one can only try…
One of my favorite writers is S. C. Lewis. While searching for
inspiration to write, I stumbled upon a quote of his: “I do not sit down at my
desk to put down into verse something that is already clear in my mind. If it
were clear in my mind, I should have no incentive or need to write about it. We
do not write in order to be understood; we write in order to understand”. Well
then, I will write in order to understand. I will write, hopping to understand
my thoughts and myself. Will it make sense to others? One can only find out…
Hmm…When you are almost twenty, you think life has just
begun…and then you look back…Everyone has a story, a story that is as unique as
one is created. Some say that you are the writer of your story, some say it is
Providence, some that it is both…I ask myself, “Who is the writer of my story?
Who do I want to be the writer of my story?”
I enjoy thinking of God as a writer. Indeed, he is my
favorite writer! Not only is my favorite book, the Bible, written by him, but I
am surrounded by so many amazing stories written by him, including my own. Indeed,
he is a unique writer. Very unique! I am not even going to get into how perfect
are his writing style, plot, character creation, scenes, etc. After all, he is
not just a writer, he is a creator. He has breathed life into his characters!
His stories are made alive and tangible. It is all pretty baffling, including
the fact that all of these stories are part of one Story, a beautiful story of
redemption…Not only that, but God’s characters are also co-writers.
The freedom that God has given us amazes me! Freedom of choice…There
is no decision that was forced upon us. Every decision that we make, we make. We
have the freedom to choose him as our writer, but we also have the freedom to
say no to his amazing “ideas” and “suggestions”…Sadly, the characters have
rebelled. Ugh, we are so dumb! We are trying to take over our story, to write
it ourselves, and we are failing miserably at it. The sovereignty of God, as a
writer with characters with a mind of their own, hurts my brain…He is still
writing His Story! In the midst of the rebelled characters His plot is still
being played out perfectly! Yes, I have a headache now…You probably too…and I
have only covered the basics of the whole idea of God being a writer. The
bottom line is, my story is, actually, God’s story, and I want the Best Writer in
the world to continue writing it.
Lately, I have been contemplating the meaning of surrender.
I believe surrender is letting God write his story in and through my life. It
is saying yes to his “ideas” and “suggestions”. It is letting him live out his
story in and through me...Ooh, that thought gives me shivers of excitement! God
really is a very cool writer…He is the best! I think I am going to let God do
the writing in my life and stick to writing as a way of understanding what He
has already written…
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